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forced to kill my first baby

  • teachermom
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10 years 11 months ago #1 by teachermom
teachermom replied the topic: Re:forced to kill my first baby
I am so sorry that you have to endure this. I agree - I wuld not protect my mom from this secret. She killed your baby against your will. Hopefully someday she will (at the very least) apologize to you so the healing between can begin, altohugh it can never change what has happened.

Hugs. I hope you go on to have a beautiful life and that somehow you can reconcile this is in the future. Hugs.

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10 years 11 months ago #2 by Kelsey
Kelsey replied the topic: Re:forced to kill my first baby
It's stories like this that really make me angry. \"Choice\"- Yeah right!

Nothing can get better until you stop protecting your mother by keeping this secret. Not only were you forced to kill your child, now you've been forced to grieve alone. You deserve better! Plus your family needs to know what happened, especially if you have any sisters because it could happen again!

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10 years 11 months ago #3 by dillon12
dillon12 replied the topic: Re:forced to kill my first baby
OMG that must suck, i choose to have an abortion and that hard sometimes but being made to have an abortion at 19 weeks must be so hard to handle. i can see where your coming from saying you dont know if your going to hate or thank your mum. its a good thing that your getting on with your life and not letting it totaly distroy you. im like that i am this fun loving girl thats always happy and having a good time but inside i wish i could scream real loud that im not happy and i dont want to keep putting on this face like every things ok, when its not. i hope everything works out for you and your mum. gud luck

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10 years 11 months ago #4 by sgurl
sgurl created the topic: forced to kill my first baby
All my life i kept everything inside but i can't take it anymore not since the abortion...When i found out i was pregnant i dropped to the floor and started crying because i knew this will hurt my mother. All her dreams and high hopes for me as well as mine shattered in a matter of seconds. The following months, i hid my pregnancy from her. This was not hard because my mom is a single parent workaholic. I became very, very ill. I was unable to eat or drink,i didn't have any energy,and i slept for hours and hours without end in addition to throwing up etc...The baby was literally sucking the life out of me. It was as if the pregnancy was fighting me and the secret was slowly killing me - a silent torture-. But i still continued to go on. My mom started to worry because she could see the bones in my face,and i was losing a lot of weight. She took me to the doctor 2 times. The third time the doctor broke the news. My mom cracked.She was screaming and crying in the doctor's office.\"Why would you do this to me!!!!!\"By this time i was 19 weeks along. Of all the days it had to be on my birthday...This was a long day.She immediately said i was getting an abortion. I knew there was no way of talking her out of it, i felt helpless. I knew this wasn't what i wanted and now it kills me because i was forced to kill my first baby. I felt my mother wanted an abortion because she was afraid of what people would think of her. To this day my family has no clue of this not even my dad. My mom tells me to keep my mouth shut. I cry everyday because it's heartbreaking. In the long run I wonder if I'm going to hate my mom or thank her. I still go on with life. I joke and laugh with my friends-but only if they knew... On the surface im this happy, fun loving girl but really i'm torn,damaged and unhappy...but only if they knew

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