frustratedI’m 18 years old. I’m still in high school, actually I was supposed to graduate last year but while I was 14-15 until about last year I was extremely depressed and suicidal. I’ve definetely calmed down and I have a boyfriend now, he’s 21 years old. I love him and he dearly loves me and already we’ve been through a lot of ups and downs.

I found out I was pregnant about a month ago and that is what has caused most of the ‘downs’. I’ve mostly made the decision to get an abortion and it kills him. Although he supports me he truly wants this child. 

I’m already one year behind in school and still struggling.

My mother had me when she was 17 and I’ve had it pretty tough. My mothers an alcoholic with my three brothers and sister, and one who chose a foster family. She’s brain washed me since I was 11 yrs. old “DON’T EVER HAVE KIDS” and she makes it sound like it’s the worst thing that can happen because she thinks she’s such a failure as a single parent. She really is strong and has done a lot it’s her alcohol she can’t admit or get help with.

After reading the heartfelt, painful and inspiring stories on here I’m definetely taking a step back from the abortion.

I’ve already got my paperwork and I haven’t even talked to my boyfriend yet to discuss keeping it after I’ve hurt him so much by going through with the whole abortion process just to change my mind again. It definetely hurts me too. He wants me to finish school too, and knows that my family is not that supportive. We’re living out of his parents house and he’s just getting on his feet with this new job.

Oh my God, Help me. Pray for me, even a quick prayer or tell me what to do! I’m desperate. This is so painful, heartwrecking, and confusing.