If I can help one person- I will be happy! Please don’t do it. I was forced by my parents to have an abortion when I was 15. I will never be the same person. There will always be a hole in my soul. I am now married with 3 children- and I still grieve the loss. If only I would have stood up to them as many brave girls did on this website.
If you are not able to care for the baby and give it a good home—adoption is the best alternative. At least you will know in your heart that your baby is in a good place. I have a friend that opted to give her child away at 16 (in secret). After 25 years, her son sought her out and met his 3 siblings. She said the hole in her heart has been mended. I will never get that chance. I can only hope that I will be forgiven.
I look at my children now and wonder what my baby would have been like. I have had multiple miscarraiges throughout my life- and I often wonder if this was my punishment. Also- I do not have any girls. Was this aborted baby a girl? Was that my chance? I will never know- and will never stop thinking about it.
I sometimes think I should talk to someone about my guilty feelings- and feelings of loss. But what will it help? What is done is done- and it cannot be taken back. I will have to live with my decision for the rest of my life. I also will live with ill feeling towards my parents for the rest of my life- which I really hate. They are good people- and I’m sure they hate the decision they made also. I don’t know- because it was never talked about again. It is the “dirty secret” in our closet.
So- please- think long and hard about what is right for you. Because if you decide to have an abortion- the decision does not fade away after it is complete. It haunts you.